March forward

Sungai Kanching, March 20

            

salam all,

thank God that I made it in time to use this title for this post before March ends lol.

anyway, it's 2AM. guess who had a large sized iced latte today and couldn't sleep now. yeah no guessing, it me. me did a bad choice, why is me like this? me don't know.

anywayyyy, ahh there're so many things going on lately idk where to begin. ok, let's just begin with me resigning from my current firm, how bout that? yeah, it's been exactly a month since i sent my love letter. no worries, i'm going to someplace better, In Shaa Allah. it is a happy resignation indeed, trust me <3

now that i am moving forward, it scares me a little. but it is the very reason why i decided to do it, i wanna challenge myself with the endless possibilities. i don't wanna be in a comfortable state for too long. i hope this second step will lead me to my end goal, which is sufficient that Allah knows. In Shaa Allah.

secondly, one of my dreams is about to come trueee subhanallah. 

1. to record a podcast

2. to record a podcast with my favorite person whom I look up to?!!

two dreams in one go? In Shaa Allah it'll happen next week. so excited yet super nervous. i hope i don't talk nonsense ahahah

on another note, can we take a moment to reflect just how fast time is passing by? boy, did i not just write a January post the other day? how did we get here? time is such a curious thing.

since covid entered our life, my firm has been practicing working from home eversince. most of us has been working from home most of the time, and honestly, it has taken a toll on some of us. some of my juniors had been dealing with mental breakdown lately, to the point that they had to seek professional help. i am happy that they took the step, it takes great courage to do that. 

at the same time, i feel so sorry for them. am i a bad senior? could i have done better as a senior? the answer is yes. i could have, but i didn't. cause the truth is, sometimes i struggle myself; catching the deadlines. it's the by hook or by crook thingy. covid happens, life has been shifted 180 degrees yet the deadline remains. 

i do realize that most of us don't mix our "humanly conversation" from 9-6. me included. i talk nothing except about work. i had this barrier in front of me. i don't mix personal and professional conversations. i used to do that, but not anymore. idk, life turned me this way.

but that's the problem you see. it made people feel that their co-workers are against them instead of with them in times of need. it seems that we don't care about their wellbeing. all we care about is only the deliverables. the results. which is kinda sickening, especially now. where empathy should be our biggest play. 

i hope i'd play a better role these coming days In Shaa Allah. still learning in this thing, slowly but surely yeah?

ok my dear eyes, will you please just shut off now? u gotta wake up early tomorrow dudeeeee

hey dudeee

dont be afraid.. tibe, it should be hey jude. im rambling, clearly. ok lah, till the next post, prolly when i had another caffeine overdose erkkk

may glad tidings will always find you, S.