You do you

 18 Ramadhan 1443H

A year later... here I am lol! Writing here feels odd. Nonetheless, I'm gonna try bismillah.

(gambar tiada kaitan, just a random shot from one of my library visits)

Salam and hi! 

The last time that I wrote here, I was still at my first workplace. Now I am in my third haha! Moved twice already pipol, alhamdulillah. I have learned and gained a lot during the process. 

Funny how a few years ago I could have sworn I used to say that I won't be working where I am right now. Allah knows best, mulut masin kan haha. Betul la, yang kita taknak tu dapat ek? To be honest I am still in awe with the journey He puts me through. It was kinda an effortless application. I was applying on a whim cause I was overwhelmed with everything circa Nov 2021. 

Satu persatu Allah mudahkan. I was praying for a clean slate and here you go, Allah laid it out in front of me just like that. I mentioned this before, saying that I am willing to let go in order for me to discover what's out there. To that, someone replied and said something along this line, "I get what you said. You thought you're leaving something big yet the world is an immense sea which perhaps could bring more barakah".

I was surprised that she gets me right because that was exactly what I thought. Being in the big firms for all my life, I thought that was *big*. Little do I know, 'big' comes in many different forms. Where I am right now, I am big on peace. I am so so at peace, alhamdulillah. Thank you ya Rabb. 

To say that I left my previous firm with zero hesitation was not it. I had hesitations. Needless to say that the people around me were saying that I should pursue something more; i.e migrate to another country. Is migrating to another country really an indication of achievement? Not for me. I know everyone has different definition of achievements and rightly so. 

I respect the decision for some people to migrate because it's their lives and they know best what they want to achieve. But for me as of today, that is not what I want. I was a bit taken a back to see the responses around me despite expecting those kind of responses already haha but alas, I realized that they do not know me as I know myself. So that's fine. At the end of the day, it's me living my life. Kan They said that they didn't expect me to make this move (i.e going to a then government agency, but now a fully privatized company). People were expecting me to go global but for now I decided to contribute to our local company; a company which was established in the 1800s. There's a lot of other pulling factors of me coming here, yang mana cukuplah myself and Allah knows for now. 

Aaaanyway, idk where this post will take me so let's see where these fingers are going to dance to. 

20 days out of the firms life, I realized what a limited vision I used to have. Truly, there's a sea out here. I rasa, sesuatu perkara tu akan jadi advantage or not depends on the actor. I know someone who is outstanding in their career but their character not as much. For me, all these are superficial. Something "physical". Title, earnings, possession, etc. 

Bak peribahasa melayu, benih yang baik dicampak ke darat menjadi gunung, dicampak ke laut menjadi pulau, no?

Jadi, tak kisahlah where we are. As long as we can contribute to others and we can improve ourselves, that is good for us. Also, is it not guaranteed that every affair of a believer is good?

Conclusion dia, regardless of what people say, you do you. Because the only person who have us in their best interest is only ourselves (and the best scenario are our parents & family members).