Exactly where Allah wants me to be

 Assalamualaikum,

Hi it's me. I'm back after a whole year of not writing haha lol.

It's 2024 now. What happened in 2023? A whooole loads of things mashaaAllah.

Manis. Pahit. Kelat. Semua ada. Alhamdulillah syukur masih bernafas and is still given the chance by Allah SWT to keep on worshipping and be grateful to Him.

Walaupun first entrance of 2024, pardon me for starting it on such a mellow tone. For that is what I'm feeling right now. 

My mistake was I accidentally laid my hope onto His creature. I have tried my best not to do that alas, I'm also just a human being with flaws. Tersilap berharap dan kemudiannya kecewa. Kecewa kerana dah biarkan diri ini berharap pada manusia walhal hakikatnya pengharapan hanyalah kepada Allah Ar-Rahman. It could have been worse though, alhamdulillah for things that ended after I have done my istikharah. I did countless of times and it's high time I accept the decree of Allah. I've prayed for the best and this is His best for me. Syukur alhamdulillah.

But with everything that happened, pada akhirnya kita hanya cuma mampu untuk menelan dan hidup dengan setiap rasa ini. Kata orang yang patah tumbuh, yang hilang berganti. Tapi tak semua yang patah itu tumbuh dan tak semua yang hilang kan terganti. 

And maybe that's fine. Maybe that's how we'll live a life that is accepted by Allah SWT; with all those feelings inside. 

It's okay. I'm exactly where Allah wants me to be. Truthfully, that's the only thing I keep telling myself. To trust His plan and keep doing my best. That's the best that I can do anyway.

Keep me in your doa will you?

Glad tidings always, 

S.