Ramadhan is coming

photo by me @ pantai Kempadang, Pahang

15 Syaaban 1441 H (Day 23 of Movement Control Order in Malaysia)

the most special part of the year is approaching once again.
ah such anticipation that i'm having.
who would have thought this is the situation that we'll be in during Ramadhan this year.
regardless, Allah is in everything.
no matter what's the situation is,
what matters is in the deepest of our heart,
our sense of God,
our intention,
our realization,
that God is with us wherever, wherever and whatever the circumstances are.






it was so timely that AA plus reopened again,
i have been thinking to join since last year actually,
so i took my chance last couple of days and mashaaAllah,
it was just exactly what i needed.
alhamdulillah.

i thank God everyday for sending me solace and relief through AA and team.
they helped me thrive through my aching days
and made me realize time and time again of my true purpose being in this world.

i learned a lot from the series of the Prophet's stories.
subhanallah.
their trials and afflictions are just brutal.

for example, Prophet Yusuf as was envied by his own brothers. blood brothers.
i mean, come to think of it,
in the best scenario, our family is our strongest support system,
but for Prophet Yusuf as, they are his greatest enemy :(
if it were me, how could i live like that? knowing that my siblings hated me.
i don't think i could wake up with a smile every morning.

there's a particular part which i liked,
the part when Prophet Yusut as reunited with his father, Prophet Yaakub as.
and that Prophet Yaakub's sight was returned to him.
i think,
when Allah says in surah Yusuf that Prophet Yaakub has "Fasabrun Jameel",
- a beautiful patience, it meant that the act of being patient from Prophet Yaakub was going to lead him to a beautiful ending as well.
even though he became blinded for crying too much over the loss of Prophet Yusuf.
but he was patient you know.
he did not act with rage,
of course he cried, but he cried with patience.

sometimes i think we oversimplified the act of being patient.
ok maybe i did.
patience is not just about not doing anything and telling ourselves,
"ok sabar"
nor means that we don't react.
i mean, even Prophet Yaakub cried everyday over his beloved son.
but he had faith in God you know.
he leave all the affairs to God.
because He is the best of disposer of all affairs.
i think this is the definition of sabr that im gonna carry moving forward
- believing in full faith that God will take care of my affairs while doing my best to get closer to Him and at the same time thriving through it.
as in, not falling apart,

i cannot wait for ramadhan honestly!
may we get to meet this blessed month and grab everything that has been offered to us
inshaaAllah

let's keep it practical. let's do this:
1. loads of istighfars.
2. read and understand the Quran more - to think and reflect.
3. keep the best character
4. learn sirah and tafsirs
5. make LOTS OF DUAS.
moreover may Allah Asy-Syafi provides healing from this COVID 19 for all of us around the world.
6. ultimately, let's do all these in complete sincerity. ameen.


until then,
may glad tidings will always be with you no matter where you are <3
xx S